I woke up two days ago really worried about my financial support. I am not sure what spurred this on. God has ALWAYS been faithful. Sure, support raising is an on going thing, but I am not currently in a financial bind. Plus, God has always provided more than I need. But I woke up finding myself stressing about if I have enough support.
Later that day a friend tweeted…
“It’s amazing how quickly my heart runs to worry and trusting in myself (and not Jesus). WOW. Pray for me, friends. I’m weak.”
After I read that, I thought, “Wow, that’s me. I am weak” I am constantly worrying…
Do I have enough support?
What if I don’t lead any one to Jesus? Does that mean I am still called to do this?
What if I fail those I lead?
Do I communicate to my supporters enough? What if I don’t know what to write this month?
Underlying all of these questions is weakness. It is me trying to trust in myself rather than trusting in God. Rather then running to the One who says..
I am your provider.
I do the calling, the redeeming and the saving.
I am perfect and sovereign over your failings.
Trust me. It is I who provide, it is me who works in the hearts of my people.
Yesterday I was encouraged by this from Besides Still Waters “The God of the prophets lives. He lives to help His saints, “that you may lack nothing” (1 Thess. 4:12). Believe in the Lord of hosts! Approach Him. Plead the name of Jesus.”
Pray with me, pray for me, that in my weakness I would run to Jesus, the one who says I will lack nothing rather than running to worry.