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Feeling Insufficient

There always seems like there is more to know. More to learn about counseling, more to learn about substance abuse, more to learn about the court system, more to learn about working in the urban context, more to learn about the Bible and so on and so on. It seems like the list is forever. Therefore, whenever I am presented with a new class to teach or new group of youth to take on, I often feel insufficient, that I don’t know enough or that I will fail. God used the story of Moses approaching Pharaoh in Exodus 4 to really encourage me.

Moses Given Powerful Signs

4 Then Moses answered, “But behold, they will not believe me or listen to my voice, for they will say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you.’” The Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?” He said, “A staff.” And he said, “Throw it on the ground.” So he threw it on the ground

, and it became a serpent, and Moses ran from it. But the Lord said to Moses, “Put out your hand and catch it by the tail”—so he put out his hand and caught it, and it became a staff in his hand— “that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has appeared to you.” Again, the Lord said to him, “Put your hand inside your cloak.” And he put his hand inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, his hand was leprous like snow.Then God said, “Put your hand back inside your cloak.” So he put his hand back inside his cloak, and when he took it out, behold, it was restored like the rest of his flesh. “If they will not believe you,” God said, “or listen to the first sign, they may believe the latter sign.If they will not believe even these two signs or listen to your voice, you shall take some water from the Nile and pour it on the dry ground, and the water that you shall take from the Nile will become blood on the dry ground.”

10 But Moses said to the Lord, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.” 11 Then theLord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” 13 But he said, “Oh, my Lord, please send someone else.”14 Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, “Is there not Aaron, your brother, the Levite? I know that he can speak well. Behold, he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you, he will be glad in his heart. 15  You shall speak to him and put the words in his mouth, and I will be with your mouth and with his mouth and will teach you both what to do. 16  He shall speak for you to the people, and he shall be your mouth, and you shall be as God to him. 17 And take in your hand this staff, with which you shall do the signs.”

God has equipped me and he is faithful. Sometimes, I am the one who needs to stop out and trust God, for in my insufficiency, he is all sufficient.


My House!

Okay…. so WAAAAY too long ago I promised to get up a video of the place God has graciously provided. May this house be light in the midst of darkness! Enjoy!


My New Place in Little Village

I had mentioned to several of you to pray for a place to rent on the Latin King side of the neighborhood. And boy did God provide. I will be renting this place with 3 other girls.


Once I actually get there, I will post a video so you can see the inside better!

Introducing the DeMateos

I met Matt and Sarah DeMateo at Urbana in 2006. Matt was the leader of the youth group at Little Village when I was involved there in 2006-2008. Now Sarah helps oversee the women’s ministry at New Life Community Church and Matt helps oversee Urban Life Skills, the gang intervention program run from the church. I cannot wait to work along side of them. Below is there latest update.

Not Only the Gospel….

I have had the joy this last week to visit several different ministries in Chicago with the college students. As I was listening to Coach from Lawndale Community Church and Arloa Sutter from BreakThrough Urban Ministry and then tonight a panel of minsters from all over Chicago, my heart got stirred. Each time I walked away SO excited. It has been such a privedge to hear from people who have been doing urban ministry for 20+ years. I am excited to walk along side these college students as God works in their lives this summer.

But also I cannot wait to get to Little Village. I think Paul sums up a bit better how I am feeling

“So, being affectionately desirous of you, we were ready to share with you not only the gospel of God but also our own selves, because you had become very dear to us.” 1 Thessalonians 2:8

I cannot wait to play soccer. I cannot wait to get to know my neighbors. I cannot wait to have horchata whenever I want. I cannot wait learn. I cannot wait to be a part of what God is doing there. I cannot wait to be  somewhere for more than two years! I cannot wait to do life with people in Little Village for the sake of the Gospel.


Do I Really Trust Him?

One thing I have been learning this past year is do I really trust Jesus? More and more I feel like these past 5 years have been Jesus asking me “Do you trust me ?” When the whole time I was asking “where am I going?” He kept replying, “Do you TRUST ME?”

This blog post on the Desiring God website was encouraging to me.

What Really is Transition???

Last week at community group, we studied Mark 4:35-41. This passage talks about Jesus calming the storm while the disciples are freaking out. While we were looking at this passage and studying it, someone mentioned that Jesus and the disciples were at a place of transition– going from one city to the next–and even there Jesus was with them and was teaching them, even there God had a purpose.

I have often felt frustrated that the last 10 years of my life have been one transition to the next and I keep waiting for the “one” thing God is calling me to. But as I look back on, even, the last 3 years God has taught me SO much! I don’t think God sees it the way I do. Sure, there are “transitions” in life, in the sense that I am constantly moving from one thing to the next. But I am learning that it is all part of God’s plan to sanctify me,  his plan to teach me and grow, His plan to make much of HIS name in Apple Valley, Peru, Chicago, Minneapolis, Africa and Los Angeles. He has ordained all of this. God has called me to Los Angeles right now, maybe not tomorrow, but right now I am here and it is where God has called me and perhaps I will never make it to that “one” mysterious place. But for today, may I be faithful and not worry about tomorrow.

I am so often like the disciples. The instance a storm or difficulty or things aren’t going the way I thought- I freak out. But God replies, “Heather, I am faithful. Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?”